Showing posts with label stay positive. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stay positive. Show all posts

Saturday, April 4, 2015

A to Z - "D" Dreams

There are a several D-words I had to chose from for this post.

One was dog; here is a picture of my dog in the snow..
He's been on my mind a lot because he needs to go to the vet.

Another choice was de-ja-vu because one of my most read posts is on a word my husband made up called pre-ja-vu when you dream something, and don't remember it until it happens that day. It is so vivid that you recall it and realize you dreamed it the night before. Often, it is something completely mundane, and it happens more often when you go to bed anxious about the day ahead.

The next word I chose was 'drafts', because I'm a writer and writing drafts happens all the time. Each edit produces a new draft. It is part of the process.

Date Night came up as well. I wrote about marriage for February and having a date night with your husband. I think I covered that pretty well, so I was left with one word.

Dreams.

Dreams are different from a Bucket List. Dreams are more apt to lead to plans. People can have multiple plans. For instance, to better our lives, and maybe fulfill some dreams and check off some bucket list items, we humans often need to better our take-home pay. To do that, you need a plan for your increasing your income and decreasing your debts. You often need multiple plans. Fix up your current house to live in it as well as possible, meantime keeping its market value in mind. You might have to sell or rent it and go live somewhere else to fulfill your dreams.


I feel a storm brewing. In our position as a family, we are comfortable in our house, in our schools, in our jobs, for right now. But things are building, bubbling under the surface, disturbing the flow. There is a change that in the next few years, big changes could happen. We might have to move. We might find our situation needs to change to adapt to changes in our lives.

Fulfilling your dreams has consequences. It's messy because life is messy. So many things are interconnected in life, so changing one of them affects all the others. There will be fallout.

I remember a few years back when I posted a lot of blogs about wanting to be where I am now. I'm pleased that I am here and grateful. Whenever I feel like whining or complaining, I try to remind myself of where I used to be. Then I dream about where I will be in the next X-number of years.

I made a 5 year goal plan. It's not going to happen exactly the way I wrote it, but at least it grounds me. If I feel like I don't have direction, I can go back to that plan and either get back on track, or edit it to include the changes that happen. Life is fluid. If you keep a positive outlook and watch for opportunities, you can better yourself.


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Sunday, January 30, 2011

Why AreThere More Questions Than Answers?

Day 30: Your Highs and Lows This Month

This month started out with a lot of hope. It's a new year, there was a new baby in the family, my niece, and sometime we were hoping hubby would get hired on.

I had the bright idea to attempt to get a decent job with a salary. I subbed in the meantime and planned my son's 8th birthday.


Then I went to my interview and was so nervous, I think I totally bombed it. This plunged me into three days of walking depression. Even though I threw a party and brushed off the interview fiasco like it wasn't bothering me, I couldn't be a wife to my husband, nor a great mom for a few days. Finally I convinced myself that it just wasn't meant to be and at least I tried. If I choose to repeat this process, I will have learned something from it.

Hubby finally heard he was getting hired on January 31st. He starts tomorrow. Thing is, I haven't really celebrated this wonderful news. We did go out to eat. But in my heart, I haven't let the joy in.

And then I found out about a full time position as an aide for a 7th grade student with autism whom I had worked with before. I was a shoe-in. The principal and assistant principal of the school would have hired me that very minute. The interview for this job was completely different.

The only thing about this job is that I know what I am in for. I know the stresses and pitfalls that WILL come with this job. You'd think I'd be prepared, but I'm afraid I'll fall for them the same way I fell for them before. My goal is to stay positive. But more importantly, to keep looking for other jobs, to use this as a foot in the door. I'm going back for a reason. I just don't know what that is.

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Saturday, January 29, 2011

January Is Over??

Day 29: Goals for the Next 30 Days

1. Try Something New (at this point I'm thinking it may be hair related)
2. Post About Inspiration (among other things)
3. Car Maintenance
4. Edit something
5. Finish series' on Ficly.com
6. Make a Dance Mix
7. Stay Positive At Work (and remind everyone I have a license to teach)
8. Eat Healthy (my job requires walking up and down stairs a lot, so it'll help me start to lose my 2010 fat)

And that's what I have so far..



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Sunday, January 23, 2011

How Have I Changed In The Past 2 years?

Day 22: How Have You Changed in the past 2 Years?

I went back to read over my first blogs here on this site. Wow. Some of them are so embarrassing.. I deleted a few posts. *cheeks burn with shame*

It's obvious I have matured as a writer, as well as a mom and wife, by reading back over those. In 3 years, this blog hasn't had much of a purpose but to share a little bit of my life with you. Though I was disappointed in the scattered content at first, I realized that's just me, and I'm not going to change. While I do have ideas for future posts, they are going to be a varied as the songs my soul sings.

In the past 2 years I have:
  • owned 3 vehicles
  • gained one dog
  • been a wild turtle rescuer
  • had some great and not so great teaching experiences
  • been published
  • made some new friends and said good-bye to others
  • bought a house!!!!!

Some of my views about the world have been tested and opinions solidified: issues in education and gay/lesbian rights, specifically.

Reading back over my blogs, many of the laments I had about my job are now reminders of lessons learned. Some things never change, and others are just hallmarks to avoid in the future. I am just as hard-headed, and at times impulsive, as ever, still sometimes falling for the same lines, making the same mistakes. Maturity means I'm either recovering quicker, or stopping myself before it gets too far.

One thing that stands out to me: I had forgotten what my son was like at 5 and 6. Remembering his behaviors is a warning to me about what's to come with the younger one! Maybe history won't repeat itself, but as humans, we tend to go through the same struggles at the same ages.


But most importantly, all the bad stuff that shaped me seems to dissipate, the hurt feelings numbed by time. It's the good things I remember most.


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